i am that 'type' of girl who are extrovert, do not care what i already spoke, and regret after it in the future. but, friday, just being great. i spoke up what i want to say. what i had in my heart for a long time. how? okay, my class is actually having this ORAL thingy and you need to tell about something in front of the class. I actually wanted to make about swearing isn't cool, but the truth is i love swearing. so, i decided to do about mental disorder, which you might know, my sister and i are suffering from depression. we are. 

everyone pay attention to me, make me feel that it is really good when you speak up about what your suffering from but without all of them not knowing about it. and of course, there are some people discover new things from this and one of my friend just relate to it, some of them are just pretending. 

the last thing when i talk 

i felt like i wanted to cries loudly at the time, saying that i have a MENTAL DISORDER. I REALL WANT TO SPEAK IT UP. BUT I COULD'NT. i almost cry and i think i am brave enough to tell everybody that mental disorder need to take seriously in this country. 

i am really proud of myself to speak up from my heart - i made a text, but most of them just from my expreience. i am really proud to help at least one my friend, my close friend which have an anxienty. she just bursed up crying and tell me everthing. i felt to be a big sister at the time. i am so touched.

but the truth is my readers, 

every single thing that we took for granted is not only rubish. some people took it in a serious way.

the penny that we got when buying something, you might be putting them in a rubbish, but you could also put it on a donation box for making a diffrent. 

and yes, i felt really accomplish but at the same time, people making fun of my name. they were really hurtful to call me something that it is not my name, but i just go flow with it. at least they are happy. right? its not only about what i think. what they feel is really important. im glad to help them. with their jokes, someone in hurt or sad condition would laugh and make their day better. i hope so.

thats all for now! jane going offline xx see ya gain!